Where do you stand?

Its always interesting to see where you stand politically - funny - I probably am going to vote for Hillary even though this quiz puts her lower on my list ... now it is hard to tell how they rate questions or how my views deviate from the candidates, but I am not surprised on how it came out. Because I said that I care alot about gay marriage that may have skewed things.

The quiz can be found here: http://www.gotoquiz.com/candidates/2008-quiz.html


88% Chris Dodd
87% Barack Obama
85% John Edwards
85% Mike Gravel
85% Hillary Clinton
84% Dennis Kucinich
83% Joe Biden
73% Bill Richardson
43% Rudy Giuliani
31% John McCain
22% Tom Tancredo
21% Mitt Romney
21% Mike Huckabee
19% Ron Paul
10% Fred Thompson

2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz

Man that irks me! or why bother?

This blog could be called strange entanglements.

A couple months ago, my bf was out of town and I was slightly horny so I logged on to a chat line. Now most of the time chat lines are a waste of time and I rarely find someone who I click with. This night I chatted with this guy who I really clicked with and we had an intense chat. I can't remember if it was that night or a couple nights later when we chatted again - that I found out he lived near me. We flirted some more and I found out more about him. Tragic story. Was married - had two kids, wife ran away with the two kids and he can't find them. This was years ago. Closeted he takes up with a guy, has a two year relationship and they buy a house together and the guy freaks about commitment and runs away. So he is turning 30 and is alone.

So being the nice guy I am I send him a Happy Birthday email. We chat on and off and I become a friend and listen to his life. He goes through a bad period and I listen, support. This goes on for a month or so. Sometimes we flirt sometimes we just chat as friends. He sends me pictures - they look real enough and they are hot. He vanishes and reappears. The story gets more interesting - his wife gets arrested for stealing the kids and he gets them back! His wife commits suicide in jail. He is moving to LA. I try to get him to have coffee before he goes - but he evades.

He vanishes for a couple weeks.

He reappears - something about moving to LA - he is getting engaged to a high school sweatheart. Now of course by now I am totally thinking this guy is inventing stories. When he vanishes and reappears and appears down - I offer a supportive ear. He vanishes again.

He recently reappeared and told me he never moved, but was engaged. He tells me that the kids are now living with their grandparents (something about they couldn't get used to this father they barely knew). I am skeptical but am nice and supportive. He tells me he is working through issues. He vanishes again. When he reappears he declares his love for me and tells me that all the other shit was a way to distance himself from me. I tell him I care for him, but love my bf and am willing to be a friend. We chat regularly for a week.

Now he has vanished again.

Beyond the tedious quality of this post and the fact that any fool would loose this guy it really irks me the games he plays. I guess I play them too cause each time I am a sympathetic ear.

Why do I bother? Because whatever his deal is - I think he is suffering and part of me just wants to save the world.

The First Kiss

For now this is fiction ...

We had talked about it for so long that by the time it came to actually do it, we were both trembling. I knew in the end I would just have to grab you and do it. When I placed my hands on your waist your were trembling. So I held them firm and looked deep in your eyes. What I saw was a combination of fear and lust. Moving forward I leaned in and on my toes, closed my eyes and just brushed your lips. Time stood still for second and we both let out a sigh as our lips melted. Then I felt your arms around me squeezing me tight as if holding on for dear life. I slipped my tongue inside your hot mouth and your hips pushed tighter against me. I backed my tongue out and opened my lips to suck in your tongue, my hands slipping to your ass to squeeze your ass cheeks. Even through your jeans I could feel how hot and tight your ass is. Our kissing became frantic. Lips mashing and tongues dueling. Hands everywhere massaging back, ass cheeks and shoulders. Finally I pushed you backwards until you fell back on the bed and followed on top of you. Laughing and grabbing at each other you end up on top of me your lips exploring again. Pushing you up I grab at your shirt trying to pull it off your body but the buttons won’t allow me. Frantically I try to unbutton them. You break the kiss and help me, Lifting off your tshirt and shirt in one swoop. My hands immediately slide up your torso and circle your nips. I look up to see your eyes closed – head thrown back. I wrap my hands around your waist for support and pull my mouth to your pecs. Licking your nips I make them hard – letting my teeth graze the nubs. I can feel your cock poking through your pants into my abs as I lick and suck on your nips …(insert more kissing, slow undressing, sucking, licking here) … finally I can’t stand it any more and straddle your waist. Grabbing your hard cock I push it flat against your abs, sit my ass cheeks over it and rock them over your hard cock. Balancing on your pecs, my back arched I tease your cock on my ass cheeks. You try to grab my cock to stroke it but I push your hand away – I am too close. Instead your grab me by the neck and pull me down to kiss me deep, catch me off guard and roll on top of me. Instinctively I wrap my legs around the small of your back as your cock pokes at my clenched hole. Kissing you keep pushing with your cock, until I reach down and guide you in letting out a low moan and squeal of pain. You stop to see if I am alright, I breathe deep and pull you deeper with my heals kissing you hard. Encouraging you just to sink it deep and hold it there we kiss between moans. Our ragged breathe in and out of each others mouths. You move to pull your cock out but I grab your hips and hold you in, just keep pumping in, grind it deep I say sucking on your neck, panting, biting your earlobe. My hands slide down your back to squeeze your tight to me. It is all too much. I feel my orgasm building, FUCK ME!

With a bang

I am visiting family.

My days are spent chasing around a nephew, hanging with my brother and sister-in-law, chatting with my parents.

Late at night when everyone goes to bed - I log on to some chat sights - watch porn on my laptop and masturbate. Last night I got off twice and of course stayed up too late.

I have talked about this before but for me there is something about rubbing a cock on a towel with my hands free to work my nips or chat with a hot stud as porn is playing that just feels so good.

If I can figure out how to do a poll I would love to know different ways guys get off!

Maybe midnight, New Years Eve instead of kissing family, or some hot stud or the man I love - I will be shooting with a Bang!

HaPPy New Years!

The Joys of Family

I love my family.

Every time I visit I realize the price I pay for living so far away.

At the same time it is smothering experience with no personal time. I wish I could find a happy balance on my visits where I could enjoy them and get away for a couple hours to hang out and make contact with other gay men.

On Kissing

Some people only kiss with lovers.

Some bi-sexual men will suck cock, but draw the line at kissing another guy.

Some guys think that slobbering over your lips and jamming their tongue into your mouth is a kiss.

Some guys keep their lips tight and never relax, so kissing them ends up feeling wooden or as if rigor motise has set in.

For me – sex without kissing is not sex at all. Even though with a lover – a simple kiss in the expression of my deepest feelings – with a stranger it can be the incredibly hot expression of the physical pleasure one man can share with another.

To this day I remember clearly the first time I kissed a man. I was in the front seat of my 1984 Honda Civic. We leaned over the emergency brake and stick shift and lighting struck. In that moment energy surged through me and I practically impaled myself on the stick shift. All the years of repression suddently burst through a damn and I finally felt another man’s lips on mine, another man’s arms on mine another mans skin rubbing against mine. The kiss was firm confident and yet as we trembled in that car in the cold the puzzle fell in place.

A good kiss is always about a moment. Its always about two people learning about each other through their lips. It is a dialogue of lips, tongue, heads tilting to find the sweet spot. Kissing is the ultimate communication. The best kissers I have know were listening with their lips. Even with eyes closed they were reading clues – acting and responding – the perfect improvisation.

A good kisser is usually a good lover as long as he never looses sight of the kiss. Never puts his pleasure above mine, and never lets me forget that. Every sexual act after the kiss requires the same spirit.

An atheist and a jew on Christmas

Sounds like the beginnings of a bad joke (an atheist and jew walk into a bar ...), but seriously what do people do when Christmas day really have no meaning.

We got up and went to the gym. It was open until noon and it felt good to workout. Broomhilda at the front desk was especially surly. It must be a drag to work on Christmas but then again if you are going to be open on Christmas you shouldn't be nasty about it. Later today we will be exchanging gifts, but other than that it is just like any weekend day - without anything open. Right now the bf is playing video games and I am being a slacker - doing nothing.

We should have a christmas fuck but after our last attempt at sex I think neither of us wants to destroy the mood ( if you want to know about this - gotta leave a comment). Of course I could whack-off, but right now I am feeling lazy.

Later I will start cooking dinner. Its one of the joys of having time is the time to cook. Amongst my more meshugener things is the fact that I enjoy puttering in the kitchen - I guess that makes me really gay?

So besides promising to post more and encouraging people out there to share comments - that is all for now. If I get up the energy I will write about up a fantasy or sexual experience for you horn dawgs - until then -

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.