With a bang

I am visiting family.

My days are spent chasing around a nephew, hanging with my brother and sister-in-law, chatting with my parents.

Late at night when everyone goes to bed - I log on to some chat sights - watch porn on my laptop and masturbate. Last night I got off twice and of course stayed up too late.

I have talked about this before but for me there is something about rubbing a cock on a towel with my hands free to work my nips or chat with a hot stud as porn is playing that just feels so good.

If I can figure out how to do a poll I would love to know different ways guys get off!

Maybe midnight, New Years Eve instead of kissing family, or some hot stud or the man I love - I will be shooting with a Bang!

HaPPy New Years!

The Joys of Family

I love my family.

Every time I visit I realize the price I pay for living so far away.

At the same time it is smothering experience with no personal time. I wish I could find a happy balance on my visits where I could enjoy them and get away for a couple hours to hang out and make contact with other gay men.

On Kissing

Some people only kiss with lovers.

Some bi-sexual men will suck cock, but draw the line at kissing another guy.

Some guys think that slobbering over your lips and jamming their tongue into your mouth is a kiss.

Some guys keep their lips tight and never relax, so kissing them ends up feeling wooden or as if rigor motise has set in.

For me – sex without kissing is not sex at all. Even though with a lover – a simple kiss in the expression of my deepest feelings – with a stranger it can be the incredibly hot expression of the physical pleasure one man can share with another.

To this day I remember clearly the first time I kissed a man. I was in the front seat of my 1984 Honda Civic. We leaned over the emergency brake and stick shift and lighting struck. In that moment energy surged through me and I practically impaled myself on the stick shift. All the years of repression suddently burst through a damn and I finally felt another man’s lips on mine, another man’s arms on mine another mans skin rubbing against mine. The kiss was firm confident and yet as we trembled in that car in the cold the puzzle fell in place.

A good kiss is always about a moment. Its always about two people learning about each other through their lips. It is a dialogue of lips, tongue, heads tilting to find the sweet spot. Kissing is the ultimate communication. The best kissers I have know were listening with their lips. Even with eyes closed they were reading clues – acting and responding – the perfect improvisation.

A good kisser is usually a good lover as long as he never looses sight of the kiss. Never puts his pleasure above mine, and never lets me forget that. Every sexual act after the kiss requires the same spirit.

An atheist and a jew on Christmas

Sounds like the beginnings of a bad joke (an atheist and jew walk into a bar ...), but seriously what do people do when Christmas day really have no meaning.

We got up and went to the gym. It was open until noon and it felt good to workout. Broomhilda at the front desk was especially surly. It must be a drag to work on Christmas but then again if you are going to be open on Christmas you shouldn't be nasty about it. Later today we will be exchanging gifts, but other than that it is just like any weekend day - without anything open. Right now the bf is playing video games and I am being a slacker - doing nothing.

We should have a christmas fuck but after our last attempt at sex I think neither of us wants to destroy the mood ( if you want to know about this - gotta leave a comment). Of course I could whack-off, but right now I am feeling lazy.

Later I will start cooking dinner. Its one of the joys of having time is the time to cook. Amongst my more meshugener things is the fact that I enjoy puttering in the kitchen - I guess that makes me really gay?

So besides promising to post more and encouraging people out there to share comments - that is all for now. If I get up the energy I will write about up a fantasy or sexual experience for you horn dawgs - until then -

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.