Random Thoughts

Tonight I made a presentation. It was to provide information to the larger community about the project that a committee I am on is doing. The project hasn't been going well and some in the community are getting snarky. In an effort to be transparent we have been hosting information sessions. I do my dog and pony show, answer questions, smile and make nice. I am good at this sort of thing. Tonight's audience was easy - they were mostly elderly and sort of sweet. Afterwards two members of the committee stayed behind and one really paid me this huge compliment about how good I am in front of groups like this. I wanted to crawl under a rock. I don't take compliments well. In truth, my style in working a room is mellow, sort of disarming, I often mess up facts and am glad that I had the support of a few of the committee members to remind me of details - especially in front of a group my brain doesn't always function when it comes to anything that has to do with facts - waxing eloquently about a conundrum I am pretty good at.

So after the meeting I call the bf. He doesn't pick up his cell phone but for some odd reason I go over anyhow. He was asleep on the couch and asked what I was doing there (here?). He thought I said I wasn't coming over - and in fact I said I may not come over. I probably shouldn't. At home I could have done laundry, pay bills, whacked to porn, but here I have to be a bit quiet and am limited. Consequently I am surfing the web and writing this post.

Why did I come over?

It really was an odd thing to do because I miss being at home and often bemoan my lack of opportunity to spend time there. At the same time I do love my bf and want to live with him some day - oddly one of my main motivations to live with him has to do with the fractured life I life now. I want to be with him and live a normal existance which means that when I am late at a meeting I don't get exiled to my house but I come back to the place I belong. Does this make any sense - I am not sure it makes sense to me. Regardless here I am. Even though he is passed out on the couch snoring - it feels right.

Whiney Conservatives

Okay something about Sarah Palin really pisses me off. However, what really gets my blood boiling is the whiney conservatives who come to her defense. Former acting Massachusetts Governer Jane Swift is now head of "truth squad" defending Sarah Palin. Jane Swift is upset about Barak Obama's comment on Sarah Palin's reformist credentials as "putting lipstick on a pig." Many things are upsetting about the conservative defense of Palin:
- first, yeah she talk about being a reformist but in instances like the so called "bridge to nowhere (actually is a bridge to the airport) that Palin claims not to have wanted - she actually canceled the bridge but Alaska still took the money - so her opposition is like putting lipstick on a pig, dressing up wasteful federal spending that as govenor she took advantage of ...
- second, conservatives always say that feminists are whining when they claim media bias - but in this case - it seems like this conservative isn't willing to live by her record ...?
- and last - John McCain has flip-flopped his entire career - seemed like a maverick while representing the rich corporate establishment - a fiesty, populist sounding woman is just putting lipstick on an old tired politician.

Sarah Palin

Is it mysogynist to say that last night she sounds like a smarmey, self-important, privilaged white women who is enamored by her own myth?

What it just me - who found her condescending?

Was my negative reaction because she was a woman or that most things that came out of her mouth seemed like scripted from the republican marketing machine that is selling us bankrupt feel good drivel that feel like a pedaphile offering a lollipop to a child?

I apologize - I usually can have a constructive dialogue about politics with most republicans because I try to be civil - but I am tired of being civil ... Sarah Palin drove me over the edge!